Wanting to fully immerse myself in this sacred time of Holy Week, I looked for another means to aid my praying of the Rosary this morning. I quickly came upon the Rosary of the beloved, now home in heaven Fr. Benedict J. Groeschel. His recording The Rosary is a Place, has been something I've wanted to purchase for a while, but have never gotten around to actually doing; perhaps now was the appointed time. Perhaps now is when I would hear the Rosary a new.
Instantly upon hearing his voice my heart felt enveloped in a truly sacred place. His meditations brought me to the present time of Jesus' Passion in Jerusalem. As each Hail Mary progressed along the Sorrowful Mysteries it was unavoidable to feel the cobblestones of the Via Dolorosa beneath my feet; I soon found myself overcome with tears, weeping from my deepest soul. My heart ached for what Jesus' experienced on my behalf, what he endured because of what I would someday do. The intensity of my grief, the heaviness of my sins continued to overwhelm me, what had I done to my Lord, what do I continue to do to him through my words, actions and often lack of actions, I thought. How can I continue to receive Him knowing how I fail to love, and so often.
As the Rosary continued a beautiful song began to play " Help me walk in this path of love...I can't do it alone, but I can do it with you"; a gentle prayer of offering wrapped amidst the most powerful prayer The Holy Rosary. Each mystery Fr. Groeschel so poignantly outlined what might have gone on in the heart of Jesus and his mother. He continued about the depth of not only Jesus' pain but that of Mary. Father noted that in the Oriental tradition, grief would have been openly expressed through loud verbal exhortations and cries. However Father was clear to make the point that Mary would not have grieved in this way, for she would have remained silent. No sound or expression could have fully expressed the depth of her intense grief upon seeing her Son, the baby boy she had once wrapped in swaddling clothes, the child whom she kissed as he grew, now being barbarically tortured and drug through the streets. Instead the Blessed Mother would have silently prayed and silently she would have wept. As I continued to weep I knew that this is why we pray the Holy Rosary of the Virgin Mary. It is through her and her uncompromising love for Jesus that we too can learn to love. Learn to accept our sufferings and pray for God's will, and not ask why. Through her we learn to face our crosses and to do so with love.
This week as we venture deeper into the Passion of Jesus, it is essential we pray the Rosary not just say it. We must get to confession before Easter morning, we must take part in the Easter Triduum events and most definately include our children, we must change the way we live this week so that you may live different forever. Perhaps turning off the TV and radios, eating less praying more, sacrificing more, so we can LOVE BEST. I don't think we need to worry about doing all things perfectly nor doing all things. I think we need to show up. We need to come to Jesus' side and console Him. Tell Him we love Him by being present and he and his Mother will fill in all the gaps amidst our failings.
A few things that might be a welcome blessing and aid to Holy Week and your life:
- The Rosary Is a Place by Fr. Benedict J. Groeschel & Simonetta ... can be found on iTunes & Amazon
Rosary of the Seven Sorrows of Mary CD by Immaculee Ilibagiza ... https://www.immaculee.com
Each of these beautiful items could prove to be beautiful sacramentals that not only will bless your Holy Week but your life and life of those around you. May you feel the love of Jesus and His Mother during this sacred time. May you show up and be ready to receive the love that Jesus has waiting for YOU!
All My Love to you dear souls! -Meg