I am trying to be more consistent with my posts but it isn't always a reality. While to some a lot hasn't happened here on Center St., at least nothing of momentous importance nor noticibility. Yet as I plunk this out so late or so early one could say, I really think that much has been happening within me. The past two years I really have been forced from survival to moving forward and to depend solely on my own resources by God's grace only; in all ways. Being alone with four small children 24/7 at various extended times when my husband has traveled for work, healing from traumatic hemorrhages following the birth of our fourth child, being a mom with small children, contending with fibromyalgia just to hit the highlights can do that to you. When you really don't have a safety net…you become the net. But it's taught me so much! It's ok to be me just where I am regardless of what anyone thinks of me, I answer for myself, what I do and what I fail to do and only to God. There even are times in life when you need to stand on that mountain, after the grueling climb with your dirt marred face, bloody hands and broken dreams and yell “ To hell to all those that hold me back, I'm going to make it and with God in front of me I will succeed!!!"
These past two years have been such an uphill climb. I have no need for Everest, these two years have been and are my Everest. I can't say I have made it to the summit, but I'm well on the way. My life is constantly about adjusting to the air around me. I have never had such on the job training as I have had since November 2011. I send my hopes and prayers towards heaven in the hopes that the Good Lord will allow me to get to the top and be able to look out and hear him say "Well done good and faithful servant, it's in the journey and the cross that you have reached your reward!"
God Bless my dear souls...do not despair Jesus will NEVER fail you. Carry your cross with hope, carry your cross with joy and in doing so you will find your peace and purpose. You are in my heart and prayers!